I see my self to stay empty without someone to love me I feel sometimes like to want end my life because none of the relationships tried to create wasn't strong enough and I always bump into wrong persons. I didn't try to create relationships in my country because I think nobody isn't good for me I am not good enough to nobody.

Oh I forgot to write that few weeks ago, I went again in the latin chat and I did the stupidity to give my mail to someone there. before he sees me clearly in camera yeah right it was dark he left without to talking at me. When i ve been in to ask why he left its almost gave me heart attack was his answer. I pressed my self to be strong but I couldn't later in my room I told my parents that I was ok something wasn't true but honesty couldn't keep my self calm and not to cry.